Nothing sells tombstones like a Girl Scout in uniform. This was my father’s pearl of entrepreneurial genius, the closest he ever came to a formal business plan, and it’s how I ended up lugging thirty pounds of granite onto Delia Braithwaite’s front porch, while sporting a pleated skirt, a collared blouse and a trefoil pin. “You make your profit on the ‘his-and-hers’ specials,” Papa coached—referring to deals that allow surviving spouses to lock in future epitaphs at present-day rates. “Who’s a grieving widow going to trust on a twofer? A family man? Or a slick-talking bachelor?” So at the age of eight—when my sister Katie entered high school—I’d inherited both the job and the outfit, and five years later, Papa was still introducing me to potential clients as his eleven-year-old beauty. It didn’t matter that, unlike my sisters, I’d never actually been a Girl Scout. Or that my chest had outgrown my hand-me-down jade green vest.

Delia Braithwaite had been my father’s first wife. They’d married when Papa was studying marble work in Copenhagen and split up soon after he’d inherited the monument shop in Yonkers from Grandpa Melvin. Ten stormy months, no kids, no strings. I doubt he’d ever expected to see her again, and I’m sure he never imagined that, at fifty, he’d be ringing the doorbell of her privet-shrouded Scarsdale estate to pitch her a deluxe gravesite. But there he was, bogus Girl Scout in tow. It was a mild Saturday afternoon in late April and the heady aroma of hyacinths had triggered Papa’s allergies. He sneezed repeatedly into his handkerchief, his thick neck bulging. A stylish, svelte woman in a velvet cheetah bodysuit opened the door.

“Gordon?” she asked—hesitantly, as much to herself as to us. “Gordon,” she responded, more confidently, welcoming, as though answering her own question. Then: “Gordon, Gordon, Gordon.” Shaking her head. As in: Well, it’s about time. Or: Look what the dog dug up. She was conducting an entire conversation just by repeating Papa’s name. “So, Gordon?” she demanded. “Aren’t you going to say anything?”

“Hello, Delia,” said Papa. “You haven’t changed one bit.”

“Nonsense,” exclaimed our hostess. “I look like I’m old enough to be my own grandaunt. Like Whistler’s mother! But it can’t be helped, can it?” She turned toward me without warning, when I’d nearly forgotten that I was physically present in her entryway, and not merely watching a theatrical performance, and she asked, “And who might this be?”

Papa didn’t allow me a chance to answer. “That’s Natalie. My eleven-year-old beauty,” he said. “We’ve come straight from Junior Scouts.”

“Natalie,” echoed Delia Braithwaite. But she said my name only once. “I’ve got a seventeen-year-old of my own around here somewhere,” she added, shrugging. “He’ll turn up when you least expect him.” Then she led us across the foyer, walking with a pronounced limp, and resting her weight on a wooden cane.

Every object in the room demanded attention: the cut-glass and ormolu chandelier, the Comtoise clock at the foot of the spiral staircase, a black-and-white tiled floor worthy of Vermeer. Yet most striking were the numerous glazed sculptures, on every ledge and tabletop, depicting abstract nudes in various states of embrace. I guessed that this was Delia Braithwaite’s own handicraft. My father glanced up the stairs, drawing a long whistle under his breath. I rested the sample case against the wainscoting.

“Henry isn’t here,” said Delia. “I didn’t see the point in that.”

This jolted Papa back to the task at hand. “My sincerest condolences, Delia,” he offered.

“Condolences? For what?” Delia Braithwaite appeared genuinely surprised. My father, looking equally puzzled, toyed clumsily with his large hands.

“I just thought . . .” he stammered. “You wanted a headstone, didn’t you?”

“Oh, the headstone.” Delia grinned. “The headstone is for me.”

Papa had been in the carving yard alongside the house when Delia Braithwaite phoned. He was hunched over his outdoor workbench, his overalls caked in quartz dust, etching on a rubber stencil with a utility scalpel. While he labored, he bellowed show tunes in his warm, Bronx-inflected baritone. “Oh What a Beautiful Mornin’.” “Some Enchanted Evening.” I lay sunning myself atop a boulder that overlooked the conclave of unfinished headstones, engrossed in a pocket romance novel that I’d concealed inside my school-issued copy of Middlemarch. Katie perched nearby on a rusted swing, playing tic-tac-toe in the dust with her boot. She was listening for the nasal blast of her boyfriend’s Mustang, dreamy-eyed like a girl who knows she’ll be kissed before sundown. Orioles and grackles thrashed in the crabapple thicket that separated our property from the municipal duck pond, punctuated by the honking of taxis on Waterloo Avenue, and the rumble of eighteen wheelers passing on the interstate. Suddenly, the telephone rang in the kitchen, livid as a fire alarm. A moment later, my mother emerged through the screen door with the portable receiver pressed against her shoulder.

“Gor-don!” she cried. Her voice, once the finest soprano in local summer stock, had grown perpetually louder as her hearing deteriorated. “Te-le-phone!”

My father stopped singing. He dried the sweat from his hands slowly, unwilling to be rushed by the caller. Then he took a swig of iced tea from his canteen and lumbered across the yard—his gait as steady as a gunslinger’s.

“It’s Delia,” announced Mama, inquisitive, her eyebrows raised. She’d shaded the name with a hint of distaste, as though retrieving a soiled napkin between her fingertips. “For you.”

Papa walked the telephone to the far end of the veranda. He spoke for the better part of five minutes, pausing to scribble a note, most likely the caller’s address, while my mother hovered on the nearby steps, periodically grimacing or rolling her eyes. After he snapped off the phone, they conferred briefly. Then my father brushed aside Mama’s gray-tinged bangs, kissed her on the forehead, and climbed back down into the yard.

“Natalie!” Papa called. “Put on your uniform! We’re making a house call!”

“What do you need Natalie for?” demanded Mama. “Jesus, Gordon. You’re not planning to swindle your own ex-wife?”

The word “swindle” was a surefire way to rankle Papa. Now, he couldn’t back down. “My ex-wife is a rich woman,” he snapped. “And since when are you so concerned about Delia?”

I’d never heard of Delia before. I knew nothing of the first marriage.

Mama scowled. She’d given Papa hell for “exploiting” us girls ever since he’d first dragged Annie on a sales call—but only when she was upset about something else. Usually, she didn’t mind the extra sales, the cash for dinners out or weekends at Cape May. “You already know what I think,” she said, her voice fraught with injury, and she disappeared into the house, letting the screen door slam shut angrily behind her.

Papa appeared unfazed. “Let’s get a move on, Natalie,” he ordered.

I looked to Katie for help—for illumination, for pity—but she wouldn’t meet my gaze, so I darted inside, stashed my romance novel under my mattress, and changed into my undersized uniform. On impulse, I left off the wool beret and itchy nylon tights.

My father stood waiting for me in the garage, reviewing the inventory in his sample cases. Mama—I knew from many years of careful observation—would be upstairs, moping beneath a heap of afghan quilts and down comforters. “Jealousy is an ugly thing. Like a crack in healthy marble,” Papa said. “Your mother is very lucky that I love her as much as I do.”

I said nothing. I felt embarrassed for both of us, and for Mama too, as though I’d interrupted the pair of them having sex.

We walked out to the truck. On the drive into Westchester County, Papa told me all that he believed I needed to know about his relationship with Delia Braithwaite: that they’d apprenticed together under Lars Willumsen in Denmark, that he hadn’t laid eyes on her in thirty years, that he and Mama had never mentioned her because she wasn’t relevant to their lives. Or mine. “She’s relevant only because she’s married to the CEO of Braithwaite & Nolan,” he added. “To you, she’s just a wealthy woman in the market for a headstone. Okay?”

I nodded.

“Good,” said Papa.

He popped a cassette into the tape deck. Soon we were listening to Robert Preston seduce Marian the Librarian, leaving Mama’s displeasure far behind us. The overhead sun coaxed figments of water from the parched asphalt. We’d already advanced forty minutes up the parkway when Papa turned to me, surprised, and demanded, “Where’s your funny hat?”

“Do you know what the problem with dying is?” asked Delia.

She’d steered us into a brightly lit parlor furnished entirely in white. Above the mantel hung an enormous canvas swathed with blue rectangles, yellow crescents, crimson crosses and sinuous green lines—as though the painting had sucked all the color from the rest of the room. The work may well have been a Kandinsky. Again, abstract lovers—some stone, some aluminum—caressed on the coffee table and atop a mahogany stand beside the bay windows. Delia Braithwaite had poured us each a tall glass of sweetened pink lemonade from a crystal pitcher. Then she’d settled down far too close to me on the sofa.

When Papa failed to reveal the real problem with dying, she patted my thigh and asked, “How about you, young lady? Do you know what the problem with dying is?”

“Maybe you’re not really dying,” I suggested. “Maybe you’ll get better.”

“You sound just like my husband,” said Delia. “Henry is always going on about the miracles of modern science, insisting that they’ll find a cure. But that’s a pipe dream. Let’s face it: if they didn’t find a cure for Lou Gehrig, they’re certainly not going to find one for me.” Our hostess laughed—a lush, rising laugh like a waltz up a staircase. I’d met dying people before—Great Aunt Arlene in the nursing home, the chain-smoking Moroccan who co-owned the flower shop where Mama worked—but none had ever seemed so happy. “I’ll tell you what the real problem with dying is,” Delia said, her eyes fixed on Papa. “It’s a one-shot deal. You don’t have an opportunity to learn from your mistakes.”

My father remained stone-faced. He sat with one leg crossed over the opposite knee, nursing his lemonade like cognac. “I’m sorry you have to go through this,” he said.

“Me too,” agreed Delia. “I’ve been making a list of the things I’d still like to do. Photographing the Serengeti, picnicking beneath the Colossi of Memnon, making love on Easter Island in the shadows of the moai. Not that I’m actually going to do any of that—but it’s nice to have fantasies. And daydreaming keeps me busy, now that I can’t sculpt.” I blushed. I wasn’t used to discussing love-making fantasies, however tame, during casual conversation. Delia set her empty glass on the coffee table. “I also wanted to see you, Gordon. You don’t mind my saying that, do you? It’s rather convenient that you sell tombstones for a living, isn’t it?”

“You didn’t always think that,” said Papa.

“No, I suppose I didn’t,” agreed Delia. “You never let anything slide, do you?”

“I just call things as they are,” answered Papa. “Or, at least, as I see them.”

This sort of cryptic aggression was nothing like the father I knew—but neither was having a clandestine ex-wife. I longed to leap from the sofa and retreat to the safety of the truck. Instead, I spread an embroidered cloth across the tabletop and started to lay out the granite samples: small rectangles in coral gray and sierra white, Wausau red and Salisbury pink, each carved with R.I.P in uncial gothic. Papa often told clients how Great Grandma Pauline had hand-stitched the cloth in the days when Great Grandpa Leo went door-to-door on horseback. A reminder that Luftigs had been hawking headstones since 1892. (Mama, who’d actually bought the cloth from a discount bin at Gimbels, would not have been amused.) I focused on adjusting and readjusting the tiny stones, afraid of making eye contact with Delia Braithwaite.

“So how have you been, Gordon? How have you really been?” she asked. “I do hope you’ve had a good thirty years.”

“I have, Delia,” answered Papa. His tone was matter-of-fact and unequivocal, which is what a daughter wants to hear. It didn’t cross my mind—not until later—that he might have been lying. “Now tell me, Delia, what exactly are you looking for in the way of a stone?”

Our hostess appeared disappointed, irked—either by Papa’s thirty good years or his change of subject. Her eyes settled on the sample display. I felt suddenly unwelcome.

“I have absolutely no idea,” she answered “Honestly, I thought you’d tell me. Like I said, Gordon, I’ve never done this before . . . ”

“That’s why I’ve brought samples,” said Papa.

I knew what came next: my father’s sermon on how headstones were like houses, each suited to a particular taste and temperament. The sound of a barking dog, followed by a door slamming in the entryway, cut him short. Seconds later, a deep masculine voice announced, “Rodin caught another goddam squirrel,” and then the speaker sauntered into the room. He was a broad-shouldered, square-jawed teenage dreamboat with a playful smile and long, golden-saffron bangs that nearly concealed his eyes. When he realized that Delia had company, he said, “Oh, hi,” sheepishly, waving toward us, and his cheeks blossomed like peonies. Only then did I notice his vacant, irregular gaze—and the collapsible white cane tucked under one muscular arm: my newfound Adonis was blind.

“This is my wayward son, Lucien,” said Delia. “And this is Gordon Luftig. He’s selling me a tombstone.”

“Delia—” Lucien objected, calling his mother by her first name.

Delia cleared her throat audibly, her means of staring him down—akin to my own mother’s icy, we have company look. “And this is his eleven-year-old daughter. Natasha, right?”

“Natalie,” I mumbled.

“I was a scout when I was eleven,” said Delia Braithwaite, “as hard as that is to believe.”

Our hostess placed her right hand on her heart and declaimed:

On my honor, I will try:

To do my duty to God and my country,

To help other people at all times,

To obey the Girl Scout Laws.

“Not bad for a dying woman, is it?” she asked.

I despised Delia Braithwaite for informing Lucien that I was eleven. As the ugliest thirteen-year-old in the eighth grade, I had little shot at dating him—even if he couldn’t see me through his own eyes. Somehow, he was bound to find out how hideously unattractive I was. Yet branded an eleven-year-old child, I wouldn’t even have an opportunity to fail.

If my father was surprised by Lucien’s lack of vision, he didn’t let on.

“I was just showing your mother some samples,” said Papa. “I think it’s best to choose your coloring first and then decide upon a suitable design.”

“You have an awful lot of samples, don’t you?” asked Delia. “What’s this one?”

She scooped up a pink-hued specimen.

“Sunset pink,” observed Papa. “Very eye-catching. The deep pinks have a mystical look to them . . . and a striking reflection when polished to a high sheen.”

Delia returned the stone to its original place like a puzzle piece.

“I need an epitaph, don’t I?” she declared. “How do I want to be remembered?”

“That’s entirely for you to decide,” Papa replied patiently. “Many people prefer to purchase a stone and then choose an inscription later.”

“That makes no sense at all,” snapped Delia. “How can I decide what stone I want if I don’t know what I’m writing on it?” She clasped her hands together, her posture rigid. “Form follows function, doesn’t it? So what do you think, Lucien? What wisdom should your mother leave behind for eternity?”

“I think you should concentrate on living,” said Lucien.

“How about you, Natasha?” asked Delia. “Any ideas?”

I did have a choice phrase or two, considering that she’d butchered my name again—but not ones that I dared express. She was my future mother-in-law, after all. (I’d already decided that I was going to marry Lucien Braithwaite, or that I would die a virgin trying.) My future husband was half-sitting on the back of the sofa, his strapping forearms folded across his chest, so close to me that I could have touched his bare elbow.

“I suppose you should come back again, Gordon. How about next Saturday?” asked Delia—but it was more an order than a question. She rose from the sofa with the help of the cane and dusted the upholstery lint from her bodysuit. “I’m sure I’ll come up with something by then. Maybe I can find something on the internet.”

Our hostess led us through the oak-paneled dining room into the opulent foyer, dragging her weak leg like an anchor. Lucien followed in silence, feeling his way deftly along the walls. He even paused at one point to straighten a picture frame. I felt deathly self-conscious watching him, although I knew he couldn’t see me. When Delia waved goodbye to us, my dreamboat stood behind her like a bodyguard.

Farewell Lucien, I thought. Farewell, my darling.

He smiled at us and shut the heavy door.

I stood at the curbside, smitten, pollen-drenched, already mapping out the hours until the coming weekend, while Papa hoisted the sample case onto the bed of the truck. “Your mother is not going to be a happy camper,” he said. He wiped his swollen eyes and climbed into the cab. I followed. “I suppose this is a good life-lesson for you, Natalie,” he said. “Cracked marble isn’t pretty, but sometimes it can’t be helped.” I should have been alarmed by Papa’s meditative tone—but I was far too love-struck to care.

Mama met the truck at the head of the cul-de-sac. She was wearing her threadbare terrycloth robe, her short hair damp and tussled, pacing between sidewalk and street like a madwoman walking an imaginary dog. Twilight had already fallen, casting lazy shadows off the telephone poles and the heads of the crab apples—the mild spring evening somehow accentuating my mother’s fury. I couldn’t help comparing her broad features and childbearing hips to Delia’s classical, hard-edged beauty. Mama, even in her heyday, had merely displayed the fleeting, girlish charms of a well-fed peasant. She hardly gave my father a chance to climb down from the truck before she launched her first salvo.

“Well?” she demanded.

“She couldn’t make up her mind about the lettering,” said Papa, trying to sound indifferent. “She wants us back again next weekend.”

“I have a suggestion,” snapped Mama. “How about: Here lies a cold-hearted bitch.”

“Can you please watch your language, Eileen? For heaven’s sake.” My father scanned the neighbors’ homes, their brightly lit windows slicing through the dusk. He unloaded the heavier of the sample cases, leaving the other for me, and lugged it up the driveway. “If it’s that important to you, Eileen, I won’t go back. I’ll cancel the whole thing.” Papa set the case down beside the garage door and added dryly, “It’s not as though we could use the money.”

“That’s so not the point. I don’t want you to not go back,” Mama retorted. “I just don’t want you to forget how that woman treated you. How she discarded you like a broken sculpture, like an animal carcass, like a piece—”

“Believe me, I haven’t forgotten,” said my father. “And it wasn’t all that simple.”

Mama’s fist pounded the air. “How wasn’t it that simple?”

My father stepped toward her and gently peeled open her clenched hand. “Let’s not fight about this, okay?” he pleaded. “Look, life has more than caught up with her. She’d dying of ALS and,”—here my father lowered his voice—“she’s married to a first-rate asshole.”

“Did you meet him?”

“I didn’t need to,” Papa answered. “Trust me. I can tell.”

“Well, he’s a rich asshole. Better than a . . .”

“Better than a what?” asked Papa.

They faced each other in silence, dwarfed by the hulking shadow of the unlit house.

“Nothing,” said Mama. She leaned her body into my father’s chest, and he wrapped his arms around her. “I’m sorry. I just hate her for what she did to you.”

“If Delia hadn’t discarded me like—what was that?—an animal carcass, I wouldn’t have a beautiful wife and three brilliant daughters, now would I?” asked Papa. “Besides, she’s been dealt a pretty lousy hand. She’s got a blind kid too. I’m sure that’s punishment enough.”

“Serves her right,” said Mama. “I hope she catches it.”

I wanted to gouge their eyes out for calling Lucien a punishment. Instead, I retreated to my bedroom and buried my head in the pillows. I could hear Katie and her boyfriend making out in the converted attic, the springs of her Murphy bed dancing above my ceiling, and I pretended that they were actually us, Lucien and I, and that he’d torn open my pleated jade skirt and I was guiding his powerful hands through the perpetual darkness.

The next seven days lasted several millennia. I drew a grid containing one hundred sixty-eight boxes, for each intervening hour, and crossed them off one by one. I watched the second hand on the dining room clock making its glacial rounds. I was consumed with the dread that some unforeseen obstacle would interpose itself between me and my impending encounter with Lucien—that he might step in front of a locomotive or elope to Reno with the blind cheerleader who’d been profiled in the county newspaper. My concern may seem rather excessive, considering that Lucien Braithwaite and I had hardly exchanged two sentences. But for a lonely, flat-chested thirteen-year-old girl nicknamed Dumbo, on account of her arresting ears, the prospect of intimacy can become all consuming. I yearned for a chance to reinvent myself, away from the unforgiving corridors of Samuel Tilden Middle School, and a handsome blind boy offered a once-in-an-adolescence opportunity. I was so anxious, so fragile, that even the sight of a baby rabbit on the lawn sent me bawling.

Mama was also on edge. Our family dinners, which had grown increasingly subdued ever since Annie had escaped on scholarship to Vassar and Katie had absented herself psychologically from the household, suddenly became ground zero in the one-sided verbal war between my mother and her predecessor. “I’ve got the perfect epitaph, Gordon,” declared Mama. “How’s this? Went Digging for Gold.” On another night, she suggested: “Delia Luftig Braithwaite: She Married Up.” Mama couched her jealousy in the guise of righteous indignation at how Delia had once treated Papa. This helped me piece together the details of the divorce: how my father had felt obliged to return to Yonkers to support Grandma Florence and Great Grandma Pauline and Uncle Lester, who was only a toddler when Grandpa Melvin collapsed, while Delia had been determined to remain in Denmark. She’d married an avant-garde sculptor, a protégé of Willumsen, an artistic heir to the late Dietrich Marcus. Grave dealing hadn’t been part of the bargain. Delia was more than willing to support Papa on the allowance provided by her own father, a Park Avenue urologist, but she felt no obligation toward poor relations she’d never even met. So they parted. Not un-amicably. Yet now, three decades later, Mama declared the woman’s disloyalty unpardonable. She compared her, at various times, to Judas Iscariot and Lady Macbeth and Lord Haw Haw. Papa let these outbursts take their course. He never defended Delia. Instead, he’d deflect Mama’s sarcasm with an intimate gesture—a squeeze of the wrist, a kiss on the palm—and he’d say, “I dodged a bullet with that woman, didn’t I?”

My father’s reunion with Delia had affected him too. I know this because one evening, while I was concealed in the arbor, reading an antebellum-era romance with a flashlight and fantasizing about Lucien, Papa exited the house by the kitchen stairs and climbed down to his workbench. But he didn’t pick up where he’d left off, lettering “R.I.P. Chester the Schnauzer” onto a granite doghouse while singing “If I Were A Rich Man.” He didn’t even touch his tools. Instead, he stood motionless with his hands in his pants pockets, his broad shoulders slightly hunched, and stared at the unfinished gravestone, almost through it, as though it were his own. I don’t know if he was thinking of his relationship with Delia—or merely of the reality that she was dying. That a woman he’d once loved would soon no longer exist. He stood in the damp twilight for nearly an hour, and I felt a sudden urge to hug him, and to apologize for being such a disappointing daughter, for not wearing my nylon tights and wool beret with greater alacrity, but of course I didn’t do that. So Papa retreated up the kitchen stairs again, slowly, wearily.

And then it was Saturday.