On Becoming
… Because leaving my birth country happened in Spanish and coming to terms with my sexuality happened in English … to speak and write in another language whose origin is also Latin might not have been enough. Said a different way: … to an inciting incident, navigate through different plot points and experience a climax? Memories of my adolescence, …
On Becoming
… watched the crapshoot long enough to know all the various combinations on the dice. As their similar spellings might … a gift. Better people than you have gone without it. Age also means that I’ve lost enough friends and relations to … liberation, a gift for which one might willingly suffer and die. To be an ordinary person with “nothing left to do” is, …
On Becoming
… of The Cotillion Ballroom in Wichita, Kansas, on what was also Super Bowl Sunday. I wanted to get lost in row after … on the floor beside her and read Lessing’s On Cats . I was comforted by the way her tone alternated between brusque … cage of parakeets in the waiting room. When Whisky died, a friend said that every time he’d ever had an animal, …
On Becoming
… part, though his body remains. Three weeks after my brother died of cancer, in 2021, my father was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s. Tim and I knew it was coming. We talked about it in the last months of his life … powerful to me when I was a boy, was losing himself. Tim died near the end of May. I stayed up every night, unable to …
On Becoming
… fully conscious of the horror of what is actually going to come to pass. “Why do you want to become a citizen?” I was asked this by a local TV reporter as … to confirm our souls in self-control, to refine our goals, to ennoble our successes, to ensure that selfish gain …
On Becoming
… bedside conversations. We abolish spontaneity. We skip meals. We sit in rows at computers like drones, producing notes that lack flavor and … delicate bones, its spiral sac of fluid. At school I was obedient, creating color-coded study guides with perfectly …