to practice intense study. to research. to seek again. to require confirmation,
a proof. to believe. to believe in knowing because it can be said
again and again. the proving of a theorem. now the corollary: to have learned
axioms. to have internalized them in one’s axons. to know on a cellular level. to truth. to
truthify. to embody theory. not to be theoretical. to postulate. not to translate wherever
possible. to hold lemmata in the hand: leashed controllable. to create the bound
aries of to understand the source material the source text of
to become intimately familiar with the makings of to understand to stand
under law proof in hand to hypothesize codify declaim
missing: complete allegiance to the hierarchy of epistemologies lines of logic
ob je ct iv it y as (a) knowable object(s).
instead/and: slippage the rush of senses other lines etched around the eyes
not logic-derived the inconvenient soft casing of the brain.
I taught control of the mind and its body taught the mind belongs to
the body is to be used in service of the body and in this direction only
enjoy scholarly work. I enjoy convincing myself what is true because it has
been assembled before me or I have deduced it using numbers and reason. I
enjoy conjugating: placing the DNA of this epistemology directly into my cells
becoming this set of logics. I climb the hierarchy of epistemologies. here I
do not think about the softness of the brain here I do not contemplate the science
of neuroplasticity. experience is unreliable/irreproducible therefore not of use
here I simply receive. I have been gifted with a task trophied as someone
else’s proof of ______. objectively, I exist only in a Cartesian sense.
you, knowledge—not producer—curator, have been given a set of
postulates. you have been gifted have earned have achieved
financial resources with which to access the postulates. you have been
entrusted. you have received a sort of trust funding. it is trusted that you
will use it in the service of the State which funds the University
which does not discuss its source materials which does not discuss its
resources its human resources which is an environment for the
storage of knowledge which can be synthesized by the right person or
persons which is/are a set of working neurons which do not include
said persons’ bodies. bodies of knowledge notwith
standing. the ship(s) the scholars’ bodies came in on. for what
purpose. a purpose that you have been invited to share Dear Scholar.
the floating knowledge knowledge of floating the scholars at sea –
he/she/it is blackboarded.
he/she/it is presumably intelligent.
he/she/it shines a light.
he/she/it brings to bear.
he/she/it hoists the load.
he/she/it is calloused.
he/she/it is unspecified.
he/she/it is homeless.
he/she/it has been erased.
once loved erasers’
hot rubber smell on the finger
the way their dead skin rolls between the fingers and away
once bled from the head